Holidays start....... Two weeks...... emm, hope I can make use of it~~~ nothing to write recently??? Should be good news huh? Have a nice day~~~

Well, exam still going on but I already knew I failed my History II~~~~~~ This mean I failed my history paper cause I always suck at my History I~~~~~~ Tomorrow makroeconomy, it seem history will repeat again, I will fail many subjects in exam...... again~~~~~~ Huah pretty tired, lastnight didn't get a good night sleep cause my neighbours house been break in by thief and my father not at home, this make me the only man at home and I just staying alert all the night~~~~ Did I sleep? I even can't remember did I close my eye and let the stick on my hand go or not~~~
Tired.........

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...... I am still lost...... damm it...... phew... better cut that off, there's been a long time since I wrote some long article with pen. Well, yesterday I almost get my hand cramp cause not use to write so fast and so many, funny heh......
So far, the paper that had I sat is kinda easy, but I just don't have the answer for it :p
Woo...... next week is the final week for the exam, then holiday start......
What can I do for a week? Anyone out there mind to give your opinion?~~~
Bored bOred boRed borEd boreD~~~~~~

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I am bored...... Wake up at 8, go out with my best friend Chean Lai and go to our primary school to visit our teachers then spend some hours and "discuss" some silly things with Ah Lai......
Just kick Chean Lai home because I've got homework to finish......
I can't live without my com...... I can't live without my handphone......
But I really hope these two spoil somehow...... I like to blog? Nar...... I hate blog, I blog because??? Lonely? Maybe...... Boring? Certainly...... and??? Dunno.......
Tomorrow mid year exam start...... I should reading history now but I still messing with my economy homework.......
Am I missing something in my life? Am I losing something? Am I crazy? Am I normal? Am I..........
Yeah what I am good in is have a nice talk and act cool in front of others...... in fact, I still can't accept what happen......
Hoh man....... I know what is right and what is wrong...... what must be done and what must be forget, yet I am still haven't make up my mind........
What wrong with me? I got no headache now...... I got no stomach-ache now and I am clear from any injury now too...... Yet I live like a patient that knew he got no hope to live......
What am I doing right now? Whining? Or just~~~~~~~
How long can I run? How far can I run?.................... Someone, if you could, please drag me back...... I got no problem to let myself down, but I don't want upset my parents.......
I don't want upset those that have faith in me... yet I am starting to do that....... I am starting to sideline from the way I should follow........ I already start losing my soul....... and motivation....... No rival...... boring....... no challenges ( there are, but I just can't feel it......)....... boring........ no love ( I mean boy girl relationship here)....... not only boring..... but just....................................................................................................... The End

:) :-) Hahaha.......

Hahaha will be the sound I make most today....... To hide what had happen to me no long before? Some people even think something good had happeb to me so that I am so "happy" today, yet it is just a lie I make to myself? I am yet to discover myself........ I need to redeem myself...... I can't live like that...... Live like a pretender and perhaps... deceiver~~~
Face the fact, I just can't forget her that easily......
There still two days left for the mid year exam...... time is passing while I am wasting time...... everyone is progressing to their life while I still stay at the same place......
If there's destiny...... when will I face mine? And what will it be?
tik tok....... tik tok...... ~~~~~~~~~~
( I am now totally insane......)

My heart will never been broken again...... Why? The answer is simple, my heart already dead......
What was your most painful moment or experience ( both mentally or physically) ? For me, physically will be when I've got my ankle dislocated and be given treatment by the Sifu. But the most painful experience won't be this...... What I didn't expect was, I've got the taste of it 20 minutes ago...... And what I didn't expect is, how much can a photo affect me!!!
Well, as expected right...... nothing to sad about!!!!!!
Perhaps I need times? What for I am here? What for I let myself sad? Will she know? Nar she won't, even if her know........ What for? Fact is, I am never got a place in her heart........ What am I doing here right now? Fool fool........
No matter what happen, I still need to move on and I know I can. But will it still be the same?
Hell I am still like a kid and keep whining when I don't get something I want? But it is still the same? Darn!!!!! I really drive myself mad!!!!!! How great it will be if I never met her?
"Hey gal..... u really break my heart, I luv u gal. Walk wif me, will ya?" <<< the word that I wanna tell her for so long but don't have the gut to do it and can't find a good timing...... now great, she been taking and I keep whining here....... failer....

*_* wee wang wang....... wee wang wang wang~~~~~~~

Emm, wonder what all of u need when doing revision? Well, mostly the answer will be couple of reference books, some notes right? Well for me, I will add on a bottle of "Kwan Loong Medicated Oil" and Tiger Balm. Its hard to let me stay focus, normaly after 10 minutes staring at the book, I will feel like I am riding a roller coaster...... After about 30 minutes....... boom! I am on my bed! So in order to last longer... I will apply it on my forehead, and sometimes, near my eyes ( I know its bad but it is the only way I can make myself awake and keep staring on the book~~~~) Beside that, it is also my best friend when I've got stomach-ache or injured myself during exercise ( emm, I use it pretty frequently these day?) Well well~~~~ I better stop the crap and go to do my revision.......

Its finally over...... the MUET exam...... After that, there will be mid year exam next week......
Wah eh mak ar~~~~~~~

...... 9 more hours will be my MUET speaking test, my most fear part ( used to be my favourite part, but after get burn in the last exam....... oh well~~~~~~) Oh god...... Its only small exam, calm down boy........ calm down......
I wonder what will happen to me when I gonna face STPM 6 months later......
I become more useless and coward when I grew older? Or perhaps just because "kiasu"?
Miss the time when I can get A's easily in UPSR and PMR...... and play basketball 10 minutes before my SPM start......

A new start?

Miracle happen! I do my revision!!! But as usual, miracle won't last for long~~~ I am still okay for the 1st 10 minutes....... then I start feel my head become heavier and heavier...... Finally I decided to switch on my com after 57 minutes!!! ( Yes! I time myself!) Not even an hour I sat quietly to do revision~~~ But at least this is the first time in this month I do my revision~~~ hope I can keep on doing it~~~
By the way, am I allergy to textbook? Everytime ?I open it my head will feel very heavy and sometimes even get headache!!! ( This did not apply to novel, magazines and blah blah blah~~~ only for school textbook~~~) 10 more days to mid year exam...... :p this year result surely decline like how the fuel price increase~~~~
No Smallville for tonight...... ~!@#$%^&*()_+

May 7th

So here the end of May 6th. As I thought, not even a sms from her. I am just nothing in her heart. Perhaps this is better for me since I no longer have any hope toward her? Two weeks...... two weeks I tried to drag myself away from thinking about her, I am quite successfully to do that thanks to lot of programmes I set for myself, but did I really manage to do that?
Dream...... in chinese there's a word "日有所思, 夜有所梦" mean that what you think in daytime, you will dream about it at night, and I just keep bump into her in my dream......
Indeed that was a nice dream, however...... thats not reality, dream is dream, everytime I woke up from that dream, it is just more ~!@#$%^&*()!
A week had pass for May, 3 more days to MUET speaking test, and 10 more days to mid year exam......

May 6th~~~

My birthday...... get wishes from few of my friends after the clock turn 00.00am. And just as I thought, that particular person that I care for, don't remember it. But not as I thought, I don't feel any dissapoinment, perhaps I just use to it?
Last year, she was the person to wish me, same goes with the year before...... However...... emm...... still got 22 hours left for May 6th, perhaps something will happen?
Arrr actually nothing big deal with someone birthday except if you turn 17, you can go to take your driving test and license, if you turn 21, you got the right to vote~
Just turn 19, doesn't mean so much~~~ Except you take STPM for this year into account~~~
This year birthday sure a boring one~~~ Huahhhh... better go to ZzzZzz now~~~

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Okay...... now May and I still!!! still didn't do any preparation for my STPM and mid year exam. Kinda lonely these day....... Go to tuition alone...... eat at class alone...... stare at this blardy computer screen alone for numerous hour...... and sleep alone at night :p Urgghh...... What happen to me...
MUET speaking test will be on next week, then follow by mid year exam...... WTF on my mind now!? Can't really concentrate on my study these day and I think I'm suffering from amnesia??? (only for study......) All the topic been taught in lower six, I just simply forget it all......
WTH I am still wondering here? I've got a lot of work to do...... Till next time, see ya.
( P.S.: please take this fellow ( that's me!) as a lesson, don't follow this fellow foot step, always focus on your work and study, or else you will just ended up like a maniac like him...... hehehehehe)