Phew...... finally 3 of my MUET paper is over, after finish the speaking test it will be over...... The paper this time quite tough, not forget to mention the listening test. Usually I take this part as bonus mark, however this time the 2nd part not pretty tough, but tough and confusing! ( well, I don't know how was it for others, at least for me it is...)
So, now I'm creating trouble for myself, at first I hope I can get a better result this time but it seem it even very hard to maintain the same resutl I get last year. Speaking test will be held on 11 May, hopefully I won't screw up myself this time~~~
April going to end... in about 24 hours and 45 minutes ( time may change, depend on when you read this) and for about 8700 minutes more, there will be my 19th birthday...... huh? Should I started my study? Well...... hope so... hopefully...... Let wish that there will be a May that full with happiness~~~

P.S.: I had wrote this at 23.15 29 April 2006, however I only manage to get it online at 6.43 30 April 2006 due to the connection failure.
Wondering why I wake up so early at Sunday? Because...... Just have a dream, a dream that never will be true, that particular person in my dream, is the one I try to forget...... But, it seem it just a lie if I say I can forget her easily......

28 April 2006

No class today since today is my school sport's day. Clock show 16.25pm now. Nothing much I did today, only eat and sleep, and perhaps cheering for my team.( I lose in the 1st round of the event I participate, so I just become a audience today.) Just wake up about 10 minutes ago, wondering what I am doing here now......
Tomorrow is MUET exam, but I decided to just sit still and die??? Suddenly don't have confident to face the exam this time...... there some sort of nervous inside me I think
Don't know what should I write more...... Perhaps, I will edit it afterward when I fully gain my consciousness~~~

Blog Addiction?

Well..... since my teacher told me to relax myself... I will just have my good time browsing on the net and posting blog..... Emm... I've think I start blogging about at the end of 2005 but I did not update it frequently... sometimes even I didn't login to it for about month or more.... Mostly when I am in very bad mood.... then I will post something to express it.....
But now!!!! I've think I am addict to it because now at least I post one blog a week!!!!!!! Well, lastime I didn't blog so much because it seem don't have any people interested to look at it, but after have a talk with a friend named Glads and see her blog...... suddenly I'm "inspired" to blogging again.... well, thats why all of these day you people out there can see so many post these day.....
( For those that like to read my blog, please leave your comment to motivate me furthermore~~~ I will try my best to share my experience??? ( or just complaining?) with all of you... and for the one that make me into it.... you better watch out ar if you don't update your blog.... same goes with you also, Kuan Thing if you are reading this.... how long you didn't update your blog?)

High anxiety student...... me?

Just have a talk with my MUET teacher today, she comment that I should sit down and relax or just go to do some prayer to calm myself down. While setting a goal is good, but she told me just be contented to what I get and don't get so frustated if I don't get what I want. Yup...... I know why she said that...... MUET exam on this week, I will retake it again ( many people considered me crazy because I already get band 4...... but that just not enough)....... When I said this back to her..... wow somemore lecture come.... like I am lack of confident because I still need the result to prove myself........ anyways... I think she right somehow, perhaps I need to loosen up a bit.
Emm, better don't think too much..... since it is teacher advice, perhaps I should go to enjoy myself now? :p Till then, see ya~

Not again......

yeap...... I lose again in tug of war... Why? My team had been outnumbered!!! 10 vs 6, yet should be say 10 vs 2? Since other didn't put their max effort, what I remember about this event is, I and one of my teamate been pull till other side...... Never lose in this event before, taste of failure sure bad plus my stomache still didn't recover. There so many air??? inside my stomache and it feel like wanna explode, and I also have serious sleeping problem since lastweek... Anyone have any tips to help me ehh? Thx...

As the time go on......

tik tok tik tok tik tok...... the night still young, just finish watching Smallville...... still wondering on the net, don't know what should do next... the longest Sunday for me today, just feel hard to let the time past. Perhaps, because there something I just cannot let go? Perhaps, just because the high temperature today make me going crazy again? At least I am right in one thing...... the more frequent I post my blog... it seem, more insane I became... tik tok tik tok... the clock just hit 23.15...... still wondering, should I sleep? Phone her again? Or~~~~~~ Let wish there will be a better day tomorrow.

23 April 2006

What is today? World book day... birthday of someone...... and definitely a bad day for me~~~ not only today the weather is hot, I also have a hardtime to figure out what should I do in the wholeday, since it is World Book Day, I tried to do some revision...... this time I manage to last longer than an hour, but it seem nothing get inside my mind~~~ I'm just read and read and read~~~ The weather damm hot, I bath 4 times today, drink few bottle of water but it still hot. Oh yeah, I'm having stomache now...... and my head also start feel dizzy......
Arrrr...... I'm pretty weak at the moment...... both physical and mental, the night is still long, anyone come to rescue?
( I am diehard Smallville fan, perhaps the theme song of it most suit my condition now?
Somebody save me..............) ~!@#$%^&*()

21 April 2006

Today, after shot putting event at stadium, I'm just straight away go home since I've lost in the competition I participate~~~ While I'm in the bus, the bus is fully packed, and a old "ah ma" don't have place to sit so she just stand near the door ( As usual, no body give their sit to the elder...... what kind of people in this country ar......). What happen next really make me mad, after a while the bus stop in another bus stop and the bus driver just don't bother about that "ah ma" tat standing near the door and open the door, and, that "ah ma" finger been clamp between the door. Even so that driver still don't bother and only push the door open after next stop. Poor "ah ma"! I' m not standing close that time so I don't hear really clear what that driver saying, but from his face expression, I've think he is scolding that "ah ma" than comforting her after that incident. Oh, and people in the bus just pretend that nothing happen and this really make me sick. Just before I act, there's a little cute Indian girl gave "ah ma" a plaster. Funny right, even kids know how to care about other, what the adults know? SIT AND RELAX! Damm, there also couple of high school student inside ( shame, my ex school student...) and they just pretend nothing happen!!! Sick...... even I shame about myself because didn't act quickly when this incident happen and now what I can do is write this blog and after that complain to that company! By the way, the bus plate number is 8418, 400 Tmn Sri Sentosa. People out there, somedays...... we will getting old...... imagine, if someone treat you like this, how do you feel? Without the old generation, we are nothing today. Hope people that have a chance to read this blog, think back, how many mean thing you do to the elder in the past? Is it very hard to give your sit to the elder? Is it very hard to give a helping hand to those that need it? I always believe in what you get is what you did, think of it. Have a nice day.

(Note: at first I don't want to write this out because just too lazy but after my friend encouragement, I decided to write it down to give more awarenes to more people, sometimes, accident happen because people just don't about thing that happen around them and that particular "small" problem sometimes may lead to disaster. )