Never thought that I will blog today...... And never thought, out of all the miserable? in my life...... I am feeling pretty calm right now? Hmmm...... Finally find out the thing that I look for a long while ( Kamen Riders and Ultraman OST). Thought it was not complete yet, at least now I am enjoying it now...... Till next time.

I feel tired now......
I feel unmotivated now......
I feel lazy now......
84 days to go for STPM......
WTH am I doing?
Answer: Ruin your own future because of your own attitude.

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:(

My companion named lonely......
Life is dull recently......
Any way to spice it up?

Wat a day...... Almost choke when I drink water, and hit my head with the cupboard when I wanna take my clothes...... plus almost slip when I come out from bathroom......
My shoulder still aching...... hope I didn't suffer from any injury and its just muscle soreness......
Really frustated......
Kinda lonely though...... someone there to hug me or let me hug? :p

About 3 months time to STPM, group study with Navin and Khairil today...... ( though we crap more than we doing revision, we did at least finish one topic.....) Kinda bored these day, really unmotivated to do anything...... except workout? Even I don't really have mood to sleep...... Candle brief life...... Its almost a year since my 1st entry? Will I still have chance to keep this blog updated next year? Or next month? Hooh man...... Anyone out there to push me?

Insomnia again........

Still continuing my life with whole lot of lie recently...... And even worse I go up to the level that I will keep hynoptizing myself that " Study study study and study......" Though I did study for the past 2 weeks, but I don't really gain much since I don't really focus on it...... I though my feeling toward her already fade...... but my nightmare 2 days ago prove me wrong?
I really hate dreaming...... Its the most unreality thing that occur in my life , but in my case, sometimes it just like a prophecy for me......
I suck
I really suck
What else can I do to supress myself?
STPM just about 12 weeks out...... and I still stumbling here and there........
Who am I?
My current identities : My parent's son,my godmum godson, a form6 student( include all minor identities in school), friend to many people outhere, a joker( that mostly use all the stupid joke to cover his own sadness?), deceiver(that deceive nobody but himself), a driver, Malaysian, Chinese, a teen, a negative thinking teen...... that will step out from school soon.......
Among all the identities...... I really unsure where I placed in this world~~~
Just like losing my own recently...... yes indeed I have goal...... But I really afraid out totally to achieve it...
What am I doing here.......
Why I am here......
When will I leave.....
Why I have to leave.......
What are you thinking..... howabout him? her?
I bother too much......
I really bother too much.........
I am...... human that keep continuing the same mistake......
Perhaps.......
I should just fall and consume by the darkness..........
~!@#$%^&*()



Don't be affect by me, this world is great and wonderful, have a nice day!

Feel tired and weak after my chest workout...... Damm it my left arm is smaller than my right for half an inches......
This week only need go to school at Tuesday and Friday....... others listen to the talk at S.I.T or should say at Klang Parade :p
Really impatience recently...... no improvement at my body at all~~~~~~ Overtraining??? yuck......