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My recent SD Sangokuden and some old gundams.....

2009-07-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

Just pic.... No words :p

HGUC Sazabi

2009-07-04T12:01:00.014+08:00

Getting damn lazy and haven't post anything about my Sazabi, well guess I better do it before I catch my flight to Sabah tomorrow.

Half way of building it... look so intimidating even without its leg, wonder whether in Gundam world, will Sazabi able to move in space even without leg since it got so many thruster :p

Height comparison between HGUC Sazabi & HGUC Zaku II, Char sure grow some height ehh :p HG Sazabi height almost the same with MG Strike ==

The fateful due between Red Comet Char & White Unicorn (or whatever, don't really bother about Amuro :p) Amuro

And after a round of rifle shooting and funnels shooting...... Here come melee combat (shooting scene not included because I don't know how to make all the effect ==)

Here some pics about the hero, Char(Sazabi) with the beam axe

And Nu Gundam with its beam saber and shield

Both their weapon happen to broke after a while......

Outcome: Char win.....
Leason of the day: Both Sazabi hand can held beam saber......
Sazabi have more spare weapons (2 more beam sabers) than Nu Gundam

*Paiseh ar for those Amuro fans, I know in CCA Sazabi been torn apart by Nu Gundam, but I just can stop myself to think that Char will always own Amuro :p

Holiday gonna over.......

2009-06-20T22:21:00.003+08:00

Semester break gonna end but I just feel I am not getting enough rest as I been working in Seremban for the last 2 weeks.
Even though holiday gonna over and new semester is gonna start soon, my result had not released yet ==
For now, enjoy some pic I took when I am 'curi tulang' during the work......

By the way, I had finished my HGUC Sazabi long time ago and even put it to fight with my Nu gundam, I shall update it when I feel not that lazy :p

HGUC RX93 Nu Gundam

2009-05-22T21:45:00.009+08:00

Phew, its been a long time since I update my blog and assemble any gunpla. I had bought Nu Gundam during the last holiday but only able to finish it recently.
Overall building this gundam is quite fun since it have a lot of parts to deal with, the detail also very rich and look very nice even without painting job.
Since I thought the foil sticker will make my Nu gundam look less intimidating, I use gundam marker for certain area especially the leg and funnel parts.
Maybe the only downside for this gundam is it doesn't provide left handle for weapon, which mean it can only held one weapon at the time...... So even though it come with 1 beam rifle, 1 bazooka, 2 beam sabers, you can only pose with 1 of it at the time ==
Well, guess let the photo do the talking...

Even though Nu Gundam and Exia showed here are the same scale, Nu Gundam easily overpowered Exia.... err in term of size

Exia begging for life ==

And here come our hero, Char for the rescue!!!
Err.... Char come with Zaku to fight with Nu Gundam? ><

To be continued........

Coming soon, HGUC Sazabi........

Are you wearing the right shoe?

2009-02-13T17:39:00.002+08:00

Do you feel pain on your knee, back, or shin after jogging or running? Chances are that you are wearing a wrong pair of shoes.
FYI, there's 3 foot types which depend on the shape and structure of your food: overpronation, neutral, underpronation(supination).
If your food type is neutral then you are okay with any type of running shoe, but if you are overpronation and underpronation(supination), you must becareful when you select your shoes.
Those that overpronate and underpronate normally can't absorb the shock efficiently during running and in the long term, they will feel the pain on the knee, back, shin and this may discourage those individuals from running again since I believe there's no one that wish to be in pain right?
To know whether which are your foot type, you can simply check it by your old shoes, if your shoe worn out more on the lateral side of the heel, maybe you are a over pronator. If your shoe worn out more on the medial of the heel, maybe you are a supinator. If the shoe worn out evenly, then you should glad as your foot type is neutral.
Another way is to check your foot arch, normally those that over pronate have flat foot while supinate have high arch. Neutral will have normal arch, flat foot occur more on overweight individuals.
The most accurate way to know your foot type and select your shoe is going to a running specialty store and do the gait analysis, but so far I haven't know one in Malaysia, if you know, please let me know.
Well, I have finish rambling and here's the real deal for you:
http://www.therunnershigh.com/shoes/?
This website provide a very good information for runners and how to select the right shoe. The best things is their shoe database is so big so you don't need to worry you can't find your right shoe. But here's also the last advice, even if the website recommended it, don't pick the shoe if it didn't feel comfortable to you.
Recently I have start running again due to I found out that, running was not tat bad and boring when you know the proper technique and have the right shoe.
p.s. thx fres for teach me the way of jogging and yikhan for always accompany me:p

HGUC Zaku II Char Aznable Custom

2009-01-30T22:26:00.003+08:00

Yes!!! Yes!!! Finally a Char's mech:p And its a extra finished version :-)

Since its Chinese New Year and I am a traditional Chinese man:p So I think it is appropriate for me to get a red gunpla(lame excuse ehh?) Plan to get HGUC Sazabi actually, but since to get it I need to wait 2 more weeks, therefore I opt for this ZAKU II instead, it's red anyway:p This Zaku cost me RM75 and you can get it from Glitz83, I think he still have few units of it...
Next... HGUC Nu Gundam == But too bad I only can fix it during my sem break, need to back school soon...... As I said earlier, I will post more topic about my hobbies and those that health and fitness related..... therefore my next post shall be some explanation about 'no sugar added' and 'low sugar' food truth... hope I can done it ASAP == ( been lazy recently due to too many work at my hand right now, but entertainment still a must :p)

Back From Penang ==

2009-01-27T20:24:00.000+08:00

Its second day of the Lunar Calendar New Year and I already feel bored.....
Since my dad need to start his work on tomorrow and I bring home loads of assignment, we happen to only stay 1 night at the hometown.....
This few day I spend most of my time in car rather than at home, still feel dizzy now......
Tried to train today but I just feel crap and have a great strength deficit, it seem my training scheduling is suck too ==
Ahh, next week holiday gonna end and I have to go back to campus again......
Guess I better rest early and focus on my work tomorrow ~~~~~~
Wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year here ^^
Zzzzzz.......

Back!!!!!! + some update about me

2009-01-25T01:07:00.003+08:00

Yes, I am back!!!! The 1st Chinese New Year I celebrated with my family after I went to Sabah for further study~~~
Gonna go back to Penang too, there's been sometimes since I back to my own hometown~~~
This CNY not really an enjoyment for me as I been loaded with a lot of work, there's a idiot that give me the wrong assignment title and I have to redo it again even though I have finish it a week earlier......
Though I have less credit hours this semester, but it seem I getting much more busier as this semester is more practical orientated, and the semester break also start around mid-April(Yahoooooo)....
By the way, to all my friends that already get married, where's my angpow? You better come surrender yourself to me before I go knock one by one......
Hohohohohoh

More than new year

2008-12-30T22:54:00.002+08:00

2008 gonna end and here comes 2009, its a new year for everyone, but for my family, it's also my dad 60's birthday.
Since he is 7 year-old, my dad had continue to work till today, for one simple reason, to feed his family.
My wish for this new year are that my family will always stay healthy and I am able to help my dad as soon as possible.
And for here I also wanna tell you guys that, I have the greatest dad in the world! He earn the right to be known by peoples that he is a good father:)

Explanation from Harvey Norman's Customer Service

2008-12-22T23:15:00.005+08:00

Well, not particularly satisfied but I had received email and phone call from their department regarding the report I mailed them previously.
The action they will be taken was somehow give the guys warning letter to serve as a lesson though I felt this is more like a PR show. But I sincerely hope it is true as some guys like this I don't think he deserve to be in servicing field. If he wanna check stuff, maybe he should go joined custom.

Pissed off with Dog Attitude of Harvey Norman's Sales person attitude!!!!!!

2008-12-20T00:42:00.002+08:00

Let me ask you guys, you go to shopping mall happily with your family and been accused as a thief and didn't receive proper explanation and apology from that person, how do you feel and what do you do? The salesperson also very rude and store manager's didn't come out to settle the matters when you ask for a proper explanation, what do you think their class of service?
For the above incident, what had I did was demand apology from that very guy which he replied with half ass attitude. Therefore I have email the Harvey Norman for this matter as I do feel, we as consumer and human, we have our right to been respected.
I been humiliated when the guards done body check up on me in public, and I just demand a proper apology from the guys and you can't give it? I am pretty disappointed with the service attitude of the Harvey Norman (AEON Bkt Tinggi Branch).
I have emailed them to complaint about the matter and let's see, whether are they a company that concern about their service attitude or just another blood sucking chains store.

Fatum 01, Finish!!!!

2008-12-17T22:18:00.003+08:00

Fatum 01 with IJ, I don't have display stand, therefore cannot do any dramatic or cool pose :( (sorry for the blur pic)

Wing folded

Wing unfolded

Actually I had finished this part around last week but been busy to upload it. Gonna say I love this backpack so much, but personally I don't feel it as good as when it attached to IJ, well maybe its just me but I like it been display separately more:)

R&O : Top Ten Possible Fitness Trend for 2009

2008-12-17T21:26:00.005+08:00

1. educated and experienced professionals
- This definitely a good news since there still not many qualified professionals around this day. Wait, where can I get those certification in Malaysia anyway? Not to bring down our own country, make sure if you get a trainer, he/she must be both educated and experienced professionals. I myself had seen too many self claimed trainer that...... oh well....

2. children and obesity
- Ah ha, I am a bit surprise that this one place seconds. With all those junk and fast foods around, no wonder it will make to the ranking. It seem parents play a major role to teach their kids to eat correctly, and also encourage them to perform in physical activity. Please don't let your child be a bookworm T_T

3. personal training
- well not really any comment due to the economy crisis...... Maybe those that very rich and enthusiastic will hire one.

4. strength training
- for me, you are not training if strength training is not implemented. Well, seem the general population start to notice its importance? :)

5. Core training
- core is very important as no matter whatever activity we are doing, we use our core muscle to certain degree. Normally weak core contribute to weak back, back pain and may cause injury when you perform certain vigorous activity. So, don't forget about it.

6. Special Fitness Program for older Adults
- I don't really agree with this one if that older adults still healthy. My trainer before this was 74(76 this year) yet he still able to train with the same volume with young men, just the intensity slightly lower. So there are no setback whether you are old, young and regardless gender. For me, the important part is watch the volume and intensity ;)

7. Pilates
- I don't really know what pilates is, therefore I won't make any comment until my further study.

8. Stability Ball
- Some coach swear by it, some don't. Well, if you feel this do help your performance and health, then do it. Otherwise, don't waste your time on it.

9. Sport Specific Training
- Definitely agree with this one, you can't improve your basketball skill by playing golf right? However one should not make the assumption that they can continue improve themselves by playing the sports over and over again. Remember another important aspect, sport specific conditioning.

10. Balance training
- Not really get what it mean here, however according to strength coach Charles Poliquin, adult can't be taught balance, they only regain. If an individuals didn't attain certain balance level before the age of 12, that individuals is not going to improve dramatically as adult. Well, believe the pro.

There's actually 25 more trends, however I just list out the top 10 and my review and opinion for it. Thank you for the reading :)

p.s. R&O mean review and opinion, from time to time, I will post my opinion and review on certain matter here.

MG Infinite Justice (Main body) Completed!!!

2008-12-10T22:49:00.007+08:00

Well, as a red mobile suit and Athrun Zala fans, I just can't resist myself to get this model kit even though I had broke after get it. Been seeing how great was my fren NG 1:100 IJ, I am always thinking to get one but I am damm lucky cause I delay it for sometimes which make me get this MG IJ instead :p
Things I like about this model kit was... emm not sure == my gut feelings just told me to have it...... Ahh, this model kit look very mean and cool compare to the rest I have now...
Things I don't like about this model kit was the head part seem very hard put it in one piece when I assemble it, the shield holder a bit lose, the inner frame not metallic silver or even silver(I have repaint those visible area with gundam marker though), but the leg contruction is very easy. Also, compare with the strikes that I had, the outer armor is more difficult to take off ==
Well, that's just my opinion. Since I like red mobile suit so much and also Athrun Zala( wish they come out with MG Savior T_T), it had overcome all my problem. Well, below are some of my MG IJ photo.

p.s. I am not pro modeler and photographer... so faham-faham aje lar :p

Not so pinky compared with the NG 1:100 counterpart, but still great color scheme

While the beam shield look great, but it a little bit loose ==

Call me melee king!!! I dare say in Cosmic Era, none mobile suit can survive with IJ in close range...(Recall how IJ rape Destiny @_@) No Kira...... no even you :p

With 1:100 family, apparently only Freedom is not MG here :(

Why sleep late/ sleep less will cause fat/weight gain.

2008-12-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

First of all, sorry for my horrible grammar, I will try my best to make this article more understandable. As usual, my topic will always circle around my interest, thus this time I will tell you something about how sleeping can affect us from body weight and body percentage( I will exclude those psychological factor, if you guys are interested, just google it, it will be more easy :)
One of the reason that sleep less will cause fat gain if because of a hormone named cortisol, which also known as stress hormone. One of cortisol function is raises the free amino acids in the serum. How it does that? Well, by inhibiting protein synthesis and amino acids uptake by muscle. It also counteracts with insulin to increase gluconeogenesis, that promotes breakdown of protein =_=
People with more muscle typically have higher metabolism, which utilize more energy. When we sleep late, the cortisol had triggered our body to breakdown our muscle to get more glucose in our blood stream. If a person that have less muscle mass still consuming a same amount of calories over a period, guess what happen? Hehehe, weight/fat gain (by losing the muscle, body fat% increase)!!!
This effect wont be notice in short term and some people may even will hallucinating that they are losing weight by sleeping less, but unfortunately that's not the truth. The reason their weight had loss is due to that muscle is more dense that fat(heavier), however in long term that person will be crying when he/she notice their body fat% had been too high for their weight.
For people that sleep late, there will be another reason why you gain fat/gain weight. That is because the extra calories you consume during time of your awake.
Admit it, for those that like to stay awake till late, normally you will find something to stuff your mouth even though you are not hungry, am I right? well, that's the culprit behind your weight gain.
Following is a link about a research that explain the relation between reduced sleep and weight gain in women:
http://aje.oxfordjournals.org/cgi/content/full/164/10/947?maxtoshow=&HITS=&hits=&RESULTFORMAT=&fulltext=sleep+and+weight+gain&andorexactfulltext=and&searchid=1&FIRSTINDEX=0&resourcetype=HWCIT

Even though this research subjects are exclusively women, well boys and man, don't take for granted. Sleep early if you still wanna maintain your manhood, err I mean muscle :p

Great sources for scholarship information!!!

2008-12-04T00:01:00.002+08:00

Have a good result and wanna apply for scholarship but dunno where? Here some useful link:
http://www.scholarships4undergraduates.blogspot.com/

That's actually more but I forget other link, but anyway its all owned by the same guy. Just go and check it, you wont regret it ;)

Why I love to eat egg

2008-12-02T20:18:00.003+08:00

1. It has 100% biological value (whole egg, cooked).
2. It is one of the cheapest food per nutritional value.
3. It contain a decent amount of protein and amino acids.
4. It taste good and very versatile for cooking and dishes.
5. You can get it almost everywhere.

Okay that's actually more but here are the few more important criteria...

By the way, the only thing I don't like to eat too much eggs was:
It make your fart very smelly T_T (Considered it as a benefit too if you think your fart can be your self defense weapon :p)

Gundam, Ikimasu!!!

2008-12-02T20:06:00.001+08:00

Showing here are Strike(Sword and Launcher Pack) with Strike Rouge, you guys have any better idea how should I pose it?

Think that your are fit? Not before you finish reading......

2008-12-02T19:34:00.002+08:00

For decade, people have continue to use Body Mass Index(BMI) to measure their health status, while BMI can estimate the healhty weight a person with certain height should had, in most case it can't really reflect the accurate obesity or health related status of the individual.
It had been known that many power athletes such as sprinter, boxer, weight lifter typically have a higher BMI but they still look very muscular while many sedentary look like a slab of fat (sorry if I am too harsh here) even though their BMI is within the 21-25 range. This is due to that our muscle are more dense and heavier than the fats.
Therefore, the more accurate way to measure the relative health status shall be considering the fat percentage and the waist-hip ratio.
Therefore, if you are someone that had over the BMI but carry muscle around you (with relative active lifestyle of course), don't worry, you are just fine. While for those that within the BMI range but lead a sedentary lifestyle and unhealthy eating habits, don't be fooled by your BMI. ;)

*Body fat percentange and waist-hip ratio will be cover in future topic.

3 Website That I Recommend

2008-12-01T00:43:00.002+08:00

1. www.ezlink2u.com @ ezlink2u.blogspot.com
While some items in this website may not be the cheapest around the web, it certainly provide wide ranges of goodies to select for. From fashion to collectibles, from games to computer gadgets, oh yeah there even have chinese traditional medicine!!!
For those that on the road or outstation, this website definately is your best choice when come to gift selection for the love one.
To be frank, I personally know the owner for this website and he is a guy that very enthusiastic to his work, therefore everyone can expect good experience surfing the net.
Recently, ezlink2u.com is also having a lots of promotions. So why hesitate, go and check out yourself now!!!

2. theglitzgundam.blogspot.com
Looking for gundam? Rare? Cheap? Tools? Convenience? Then here is the place you should go, being a gundam fans himself, abang glitz treat all his stuff very well. The 1st time I receive my parcel, it is in top notch conditions. No matter how fxxk up the shipping company are, as long as abang glitz wrap your parcel, you don't need to worry your babies ( the way abang glitz called gundam) been harm :p
I personally bought twice from abang glitz and if not because of financial constrain, surely I will buy more :) Way to go abang glitz!!!

3. hmm.... ooi8756.blogspot.com
Yeah... Its my blog, so far I haven't come out with any theme for my blog yet, though I didn't plan to put majority of my life here. My main focus will be more on website, book, movie review. And since I am a sport science student, from times to times I will post some tips related to health and fitness.
Be sure you come here more frequently, okay? :)

3 Things That I Had Done and Doing This Holiday =_=

2008-12-01T00:08:00.006+08:00

1. Painting
2. Installing and Assemble
3. Use my raw strength

Okay okay, I may sound vague so let me explain each of these one by one.

Painting, since my dad is short of worker recently, I had go to his work site to help him to do the painting job for his project, oh well, the 2nd day of my holiday I spend whole day painting in Jalan Loke Yew.
That's the painting for work, for leisure, I had also doing some painting job. FYI, I am a gundam fans and been collecting gunpla since I am 12 but become quite active only recently. I have a 1:20 Lacus Clyne and Cagalli Yula Attha Figure that come together with my gunpla. Out of boredness, I experiment both of them with gundam marker and some poster color =_=

The picture is quite blur since I am very pokkai, took this pic with my W700i.

And now for the installing and assembling, actually I should add "screwing" too but well it seem it not really suit to be use here. Anyhow, beside painting, I also help my dad install doorlock and the door on his work site, when at home, what else, of course assembling my gunpla!!!! Thanks to glitz83 a.k.a. abang ray which sell very cheap gunpla online, I able to get more gunpla( those in Toy R'Us and department store too overprice =_=). By the way, following is glitz83 blog: theglitzgundam.blogspot.com , be sure to visit it if you are also gundam fans, you wont regret it ;)

3rd thing I do, since it involve strength, actually it still the same, when there was something that I can do in my dad work site, I will be the hulk or err... kuli T_T just responsible to carry this and that...... At home, no matter how tired am I, I still follow my own discipline and make sure I at least do some compound exercise(weight training) with my barbell......
Btw, there will be no pic for the 3rd since now I am skinny enough to been blow by wind, been trying to gain back my strength during this holiday T_T

I am back???

2008-11-30T14:38:00.002+08:00

Huh...... Wah!? The last time I update my blog was 2 years ago??? Opps, actually I had been back few times to Peninsular before, however I even forget that I owned a blog......
Recently seeing some of my friends that so active blogging make my soul burn again =_=, well stay tune......

2007-06-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

Gonna leave peninsular soon... to Sabah... UMS....
Wish I still have access to internet always =_=
All the best to all my dear friend out there....

2007-06-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

Phew... its been a while since I last wrote anything here.... I just open another blog here~~~ http://cblog.cari.com.my/?133701
Not much happen recently.... except that I had stopped work and let myself "berkarat" at home now~~~
Fathers day is coming around~~~ just wanna share this with anyone that come across here~~~ http://cjcphoto.com/can/
Till next time

2007-04-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

Feeling tired recently..... With all the injury I sustained, I am too lazy to move even my finger~~~
The only good things ( but not in a really good timing actually.......) happen this week was I been shortlisted to interview for Sport Science in UM, the subject I like so much and together the Uni that I wish I could enter so much......
Hope I won't screw myself......
=_= Quite nervous...... I been sleeping well for 2 days after I knew, then now I am starting to worry whether I would pass through the interview and test...... >_<
Wish me all the best for anyone that accidentally stumble here.... Thanks......

2007-04-03T00:58:00.000+08:00

Its been 4 days I work at Subang Parade...... Except the sales, everything else is going smooth...... And the people that work there also very nice~~~

2007-03-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

I will be working at Subang Parade start from tomorrow...... =_= I shall be alone there during weekday...... please, anyone that stumble here, if you could or if you pass by there... talk to me...... =_=

My result sucks >_<

2007-03-18T20:54:00.001+08:00

thats all what I wanna say......

2007-03-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

4 more days STPM gonna release...... been suffering from insomnia since lastnight......
Well well...... The End? A new hope? Everything will only revealed this thursday......
Everyone that come across this, please wish me all the best and luck, I need it.

I hate Burning Crusade.......

2007-01-18T21:14:00.001+08:00

As the title said, I work as a admin assistant cum receptionist, just in this 3 day, I receive around 100~200 phone calls about this game......
Geez...... even my mind been bombarding with the word " burning crusade burning crusade........."
Guess I just can't understood how those guy cause it's been a long time since I had played any games~~~
Here's a shot from pcgame storeroom before I left ( there are more during afternoon, but its already been shipped to many places as far as Hong Kong~~~)
By the way, this expansion pack cost you RM169, its my lunch budget for a month~~~
And for those that happen to come across this page when they searching something related to Burning Crusade, you are on the wrong place.
I wrote all of this just to expose all my emotion ( it's suck to answer so many phone calls about the samething and even some speak very rude to you......)

Untitle 17 January 2007

2007-01-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

Life is getting bored recently, everyday just following the same scenario~~~
Wake up at 7.30~~~~ work from 9am to 6pm... then stuck in the traffic jam~~~
My work kinda challenging though, working for 6 company at once ( they merge it under one management system~~~), hopefully I can save enough money for CNY~~~
Phew, there's no time for workout too, only manage to do it at Saturday and Sunday~~~
But since I am doing pretty high volume and try my best to intensify it, my body actually still feel the pump and soreness till today~~~
Hope everyone fine and all the best~~~
Till next time

A Tiring Day~~~

2007-01-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

Today really tired...... Don't feel wanna say much about it.....
Phew...... Have a nice day everyone.

Welcome 2007 and bye bye 2006

2007-01-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

So here we are, 1st January of 2007... Its not only mean new year to me, its also my dad's birthday...
Well, I am too tired to write anything at the moment, guess I will continue it on the others day~

2006-12-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

GREAT! I twisted my neck today...... Now I am like a half handicapped, can't use any strength at all...... It is pain...... and it is suck to be weak...... and away from weight lifting...ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

2006-12-07T14:07:00.000+08:00

Phew...... finally finish my exam~~~ and now my identity will be jobless high school graduate...... Didn't workout seriously during exam period and I eat a lot of junk too during that period and the result, I gain a lot of fat~
Well, I will back to training and eat clean~~~ Perhaps will look for a job next year, otherwise I will work with my dad. Here my recent photo~ :p By the way, this pic been taken after leg workout, I didn't do any arm work that day, my friend ZF take it~ finally he also interested in lifting weight? Ohh I am waiting him right now......

Never though that I and him is so much alike~ :p

2006-11-18T01:02:00.000+08:00

Which Survivor of the Impending Nuclear Apocalypse Are You?
A Rum and Monkey joint.

2006-11-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

Arggg... 3 days more STPM start....
I am damm finish......

2006-10-08T21:02:00.000+08:00

Now here come to the end of my holidays......
Didn't do any revision at all ( or should say serious revision~)
Thing that I did:
1. Watch Mahou Sentai Magiranger
2. Eat
3. Workout
4. Sleep
5. Watch TV

And that's it.......
I am dead...... for sure~

2006-09-29T10:11:00.000+08:00

Didn't go to school today because got a slight fever......
Wonder...... you guys prefer to have a sweet dream or a nightmare?
Dream is not real......
For me, I prefer to have a nightmare. At least, when I wake up, I will glad I am still alive, I am fine and so on~
Just get a sweet dream? lastnight...... Someone that I tried not to mention in a very long time appeared again......
Thought I already get over of it....... but it didn't seem so......
Well, I just can wish myself all the best.......

2006-09-26T20:39:00.001+08:00

Arrr....... tomorrow need to retake History 1( Islamic civilization ) paper......
Just get a forward mail that make me really sick today......
I hate myself.......
Just now I realize sometimes when you are helping others...... its may not totally a good thing, at least, you should know who are you helping and it is worth it? Perhaps, the person you help now...... just kill someone? just commit a crime? Or will commit a crime?
Perhaps you guys out there think I should not accused someone for the crime he/she not yet did, however I am much more willing to be sellfish than regret one day...... I am regretting now......
Homosapien...... the most dangerous species around......
Thing happen a lot these day......
I scold someone yesterday though afterward both of us make peace......
Just......
Feel incomplete recently.......
Today workout...... more like I am a weight lifting machine than I am training...... I just keep the weight going....... not been distracted...... but... just doesn't get those kind of feeling that I always get...... ( the pump is there... but my mind just feel different)
Even around the world...... many things happen......
Chaos? in Taiwan and Thailand....... And some argument keep occuring between my country ministers and some "old men"~~~~~~
Listening to Jam Project " Saviour in the Dark"......
Perhaps...... its time for saviour to reappear ( I am not a Christian).......
Guess, this world really need saviour......
I am thinking too much and complaining too much I think.......
Till next time~

2006-09-26T20:39:00.000+08:00

2006-09-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

7 weeks more....... yeah I still haven't start anything......
I am suck...... I am pathetic.......
Damm me~~~

2006-09-17T20:19:00.000+08:00

Great...... 8 weeks left for STPM...... yet I still haven't work anything for it......
Spend my day with watching Ultraman...... and Ultraman....... and listening to Ultra's theme song......

2006-09-11T21:52:00.000+08:00

Life is...... something that got no U-turn...... the past been past...... its somewhere that we can't go back......
Recently pretty weird... I keep thinking thing of my past ( sound like some old and ill people that gonna *** soon)
Though I frequently think back my past...... but the urge to progress is much more tense than ever......
My schooling life gonna over......
Indeed I get some useful lesson during 13 years in school...... I met many people... good and bad~~~
I doubt I will ever be here blogging if I didn't attend school ( for instance, I won't get to know others language so much beside my native language)
Got a urge to wrap everthing up...... ( sound like I gonna *** again......)
Back when I am form 5, there's no such kind of feeling even on my graduation days......
But now? 64 days to go...... yet...... my emotion start boiling~~~
I am kinda introvert and shy some of the time( most of the times......)
Guess I won't be able to say thank you or sorry to all the people I met during my school life......
There's not use if I just keep all the things inside my heart...... but it just feel weird to say it out.......
Well...... to the people that had help me...... taught me...... TQ
To people that keep picking me up...... TQ too...... you make me become much more patience......
To people that love to criticize me~ TQ too...... you make me realize my weakness......
To people that had walk through my life...... TQ too.......
And well, to people that "kena" ( can't find a better word) by me....... Sorry~
What else I wanna say......
Emm......
I think I will keep my mouth shut for this time~
Till next time~~~~~~~ Have a nice days :)

2006-09-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

Emm...... Its been a long time since I updated my blog~~~
Having my trial exam recently and suffering much from sleep disorder......
Taking too much caffeine too recently......
And...... perhaps....... slacking too much recently......
67 days to go......

2006-08-29T23:48:00.000+08:00

Never thought that I will blog today...... And never thought, out of all the miserable? in my life...... I am feeling pretty calm right now? Hmmm...... Finally find out the thing that I look for a long while ( Kamen Riders and Ultraman OST). Thought it was not complete yet, at least now I am enjoying it now...... Till next time.

2006-08-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

I feel tired now......
I feel unmotivated now......
I feel lazy now......
84 days to go for STPM......
WTH am I doing?
Answer: Ruin your own future because of your own attitude.

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:(

2006-08-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

My companion named lonely......
Life is dull recently......
Any way to spice it up?

2006-08-13T22:13:00.000+08:00

Wat a day...... Almost choke when I drink water, and hit my head with the cupboard when I wanna take my clothes...... plus almost slip when I come out from bathroom......
My shoulder still aching...... hope I didn't suffer from any injury and its just muscle soreness......
Really frustated......
Kinda lonely though...... someone there to hug me or let me hug? :p

2006-08-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

About 3 months time to STPM, group study with Navin and Khairil today...... ( though we crap more than we doing revision, we did at least finish one topic.....) Kinda bored these day, really unmotivated to do anything...... except workout? Even I don't really have mood to sleep...... Candle brief life...... Its almost a year since my 1st entry? Will I still have chance to keep this blog updated next year? Or next month? Hooh man...... Anyone out there to push me?

2006-08-07T23:54:00.000+08:00

Insomnia again........

2006-08-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

Still continuing my life with whole lot of lie recently...... And even worse I go up to the level that I will keep hynoptizing myself that " Study study study and study......" Though I did study for the past 2 weeks, but I don't really gain much since I don't really focus on it...... I though my feeling toward her already fade...... but my nightmare 2 days ago prove me wrong?
I really hate dreaming...... Its the most unreality thing that occur in my life , but in my case, sometimes it just like a prophecy for me......
I suck
I really suck
What else can I do to supress myself?
STPM just about 12 weeks out...... and I still stumbling here and there........
Who am I?
My current identities : My parent's son,my godmum godson, a form6 student( include all minor identities in school), friend to many people outhere, a joker( that mostly use all the stupid joke to cover his own sadness?), deceiver(that deceive nobody but himself), a driver, Malaysian, Chinese, a teen, a negative thinking teen...... that will step out from school soon.......
Among all the identities...... I really unsure where I placed in this world~~~
Just like losing my own recently...... yes indeed I have goal...... But I really afraid out totally to achieve it...
What am I doing here.......
Why I am here......
When will I leave.....
Why I have to leave.......
What are you thinking..... howabout him? her?
I bother too much......
I really bother too much.........
I am...... human that keep continuing the same mistake......
Perhaps.......
I should just fall and consume by the darkness..........
~!@#$%^&*()

Don't be affect by me, this world is great and wonderful, have a nice day!

2006-08-01T19:27:00.000+08:00

Feel tired and weak after my chest workout...... Damm it my left arm is smaller than my right for half an inches......
This week only need go to school at Tuesday and Friday....... others listen to the talk at S.I.T or should say at Klang Parade :p
Really impatience recently...... no improvement at my body at all~~~~~~ Overtraining??? yuck......

2006-07-30T13:34:00.000+08:00

Go jalan-jalan at Sunway yesterday and get myself a weightlifting belt, quite a good deal because normally it will cost around RM100+ but there's megasale right now~~~ Going back to my boxing routines again to shred some body fat, I cannot fit into my 33inches jeans anymore and my waist is now 35...... Cut down the carb, welcome the cardio...... And STPM is coming nearer and nearer, need to pay more attention to my study too~~~~~~ Huah pretty bored right now...... Ghost month this months....... What else will happen this month???

Which one is it? Racial issue? Or just school violence?

2006-07-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

There's a fight in my school today. A malay guy been beat by steel pipe and been sent to hospital, hope that fellow will fine ( I doubt that cause his condition is very critical.) I have seen many fight before, but this one considered the biggest fight I ever see. Below is all the sequences that I had saw. ( Take note that I am not " keh poh", actually I wanna go home already but one of my friend got something to and go back late that day, so we just watching "movie" inside the car while waiting for him.)
1. There's about hundred? of Malay students gather at the school gate. And there's few Indians walking here walking there.
2. A police car come, the police give a warning to all the students to go home but no one follow the order. After stay for a few minutes, the police leave.
3. The chasing start, around 10 Indians ( both student and outsider) chasing after the Malays with stick and anything that they considered weapon. ( There's no exact figure of how many Malays involve in this fight since there's so many of them include the " main character" and the audiences.)
4. The next second, the fight switch till the van that park beside my friend's car, and a loud "BUMP", a Malays guy been beat by steel pipe? a stick on his head and faint.
5. Now here come all the busy body ( include me, the only thing I do is ask anyone that have handphone to called the ambulance.) And here's my little thought, there's a Malay guy approach me and my friends whether we are prefect or not , when he know we're just form six student, he scold us why we just stand and watch. Seriously, I really pissed of him at that time and wanna ask him back " Then what are you doing here asking us question?". But to avoid another fight? I just keep the word. And from my observation to that guy ( hehehe, I got a habit to observe human's behaviour, becareful lar all of you.......), that fellow just come here to mess up only.
6. The boy been sent to clinic nearby. No long after, police come and the ambulance come. Everyone just keep gathering at the place and discussing about it.
7. Then, we go home after our friend come.
Sorry if I didn't explain very briefly about this incident here, actually I hope I can get some photoshot, too bad I didn't bring my camera or handphone. This incident actually remind me of the May 13 raid and Kampung Medan incident, hope their fight is not based of the racial issue. School violence is everywhere now, perhaps the government should take more aggresive way to overcome it. Beside school violence, there's also crime everywhere in our society nowadays. Even at home, there's child abuse, sex abuse, marital problems~~~ etc. What happen to our world nowaday? Aren't there more educated people now? Where all the moral values? No place is safe now in our country thought our country don't hav any war...... I wonder what all the politician doing? I wonder what all the law enforcer doing? But well done for the ambulance because they come really fast~~~
It seem that I am out of topic already....... enough enough~~~~ Sorry if my description bout this incident not so complete~~~
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I feel very down now...... I am very tired......

2006-07-25T14:45:00.000+08:00

ARGGGHHH!!!! 1 more point!!! 1 more point I can get band 5 in my MUET!!! And guess what? I just get 23/45 for my speaking!!!!!! Although I know I am not very good in speaking and I got no intention to bring down others...... but, some student in my class that barely spoke anything in the test get higher mark than me?????? WTH is this???!!! ( Doesn't mean to brag..... I average 30~35/45 in the school level, and people that use to get less than 20 and didn't show any improvement in the real exam, get higher mark than me......) Perhaps nextime if there any speaking exam, I should just zip my mouth, perhaps I can get better grade then...
Negative way of thinking: 1 more marks I will get band 5, the reason I mind it so much is because band 4= satisfactory command of the language, band 5= good command of blah blah blah and band 6 = very good command blah blah blah. And since we are child, we been taught that A=sangat baik, B=baik, C=memuaskan, and memuaskan in english is satisfactory command of the blah blah blah, so...... I get C in my English test!!!!!!
Positive way of thinking: I get the highest mark in band 4 among all candidates!!!!!! ( except those that tie with me......)
There go RM50 for another band 4 Muet result......

2006-07-23T17:14:00.000+08:00

Just tired...... tired...... Bump....... ZzzZzzZzz......

2006-07-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

Finally back online after 2? 3 weeks...... There's problem with my area Streamyx port~~~ My foster father just passed away last week, so I go back to Penang to attend his funeral...... I don't really cry on his funeral though I am very sad about it......
Life is really something we can't predict and assured of...... Just 4 months ago, I still saw his going here going there by his bike...... Suddenly, I receive a call from my sis that he got cancer( final stage)...... and within 24 hours, he passed away...... Too fast to let me react......
So I spent almost a week in Penang, hopes that my foster mum and family members won't be so sad...... Times indeed past very fast...... think back, I still recall that Lou Dou ( I usually call my foster father like that) crying so hard at his mum funeral, and just suddenly, he is the one that make all of us sad......
Just feeling a bit lost...... though I didn't stay with him and hardly see him ( only during festival and holidays mostly) these few years...... But...... he will continue to live in my heart......
Hope he in a better place and rest peacefully......

DOMS

2006-07-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

According to some people on the forum, perhaps I am suffering from delayed onset muscle soreness...... Finally I can walk at properly today...... However my calves still very pain and sore...... Many bad things happen around this week...... Didn't feel wanna write it down... Just hope for a better tomorrow~

2006-06-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

~!#$%^&*() This is all the thing in my mind most of the time today, can't think clearly and rationally...... The stupid bus came late today, make me wait for another hour and starve for 2 hours...... Damm it!!! This put me in serious catabolic state~~~ Quickly have a dextrose after reach home, bath and go to do my cardio...... and, been chased by the stupid dog once again!!! This time didn't us chi...... because a bit tired...... Just make the pose wanna do some "Black Knight Strike"( Black Knight is my bike name... cool? and this skill is done by ramming toward the target by the high speed (approximately faster than perodua kancil). Hoh man, can't hold any longer...... Guess I will finish it the other day~

Insomnia

2006-06-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

Damm it, this is the second day I face this problem....... Damm it!!! 5 more hours I need to go to school yet I still awake!!!
Just get some advice from LINAZ( fellow bodybuilder from Aus), well guess now I will just go to bath ( at 00.20 heh....) and take a warm milk and try to slam myself to bed again........ I WANT TO ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!

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2006-06-26T19:32:00.001+08:00

PEACE..... seriously these few day I few kinda peaceful, perhaps because of my decision to run away from the real world for awhile~~~ Below will be my routine from last Friday till today......
Friday: Wake up at 6 and drink a glass of milk, have some crackers and bump...... sleep till 10 again. Then cook and eat, and bath... Just finish downloaded Ultraman The Next at 2pm and watch it till 3 something, then I have my pre workout meal and bust my ass in my own home gym( or should be called room gym? And seriously I am working my shoulder and forearm that day......) After I finish, post workout meal...... after an hour, bath and have my dinner, continue my day with some TV programme, then have my supper and ZzzZzzZzz
Saturday: The shoulder workout sure does tax my body energy much, I only manage to crawl from my bed at 9 something, have my breakfast, read the newspaper and watch Batman:The Animated Series and Super Robot Monkey Team Hyper Force GO! Then bath...... cook and eat again...... Have a light reading at the afternoon ( just random reading the article in wikipedia), snack and do my cardio at 5, then watch Power Ranger Dino Thunder(seriously, I watch it because just used to watch, the show is getting bored......) then at night, hanging out with my friend at mamak~~~ then went home, cook and eat again before I went to bed~
Sunday: Same as usual, just didn't watch any TV programme at the morning but read the newspaper~ Clean up my room at the evening( because I plan to get a Lat pulldown station, but must see got $ or not, oh yeah, there's only RM0.92 left in my wallet). At night, I try to edit and make a music video but it come up with a total failure( ashamed to even watch it back again). Holy shit, the girl I love online that night, oh yeah everytimes I told myself :" Ooi, this girl don't like you. Ooi, this girl already got boy friend. Ooi, you need to rest early, don't stay up late cause it will hamper your recuperation." And in the end of the day, I still repeat the same mistake and just can't go away from any chance to talk( type?) to her. My rationale come back at 2.?? a.m. and I pull myself to my bed, however I think I just able to get asleep at 3 something. Wake up at 8 again, go to do my cardio, others...... refer below. By the way, I have my chest/tricep workout today, it seem I shrink in size??? Perhaps I did lost some muscle during my cardio session, need to be smart on my training though. After the workout, open the com and start blogging again and here come this blog. Tomorrow schooling day, what a pain on the ass......

Monday

2006-06-26T09:26:00.000+08:00

Determination did determine one failure or success...... sleep at 3.30am but manage to pull myself up at 8am and do my cardio for 45 minutes...... Without determination I don't think I can do it. Today holiday, got one extra day to relax~~~ While I am doing my cardio, two stupid dogs chase after me but I manage to get away from them with my inner strength a.k.a chi....( Shout with full power, and since I am an ex field commander, you know how loud my voice are lar.......) Quickly get away from the scene anyway, surely been kill by the people in the neighbourhood if I stay any longer ( orang gila yang jerit jerit pada pagi, memang nak kena ni......).
Later.

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2006-06-17T00:34:00.000+08:00

Just purposely take a leave from school today......
Just wondering am I get lose of my track?......
Just wondering what am I doing here.......
Tired...... even with the 10 hours sleep I still feel tired......
Hoh dude what am I doing, STPM just another 4 more months and yet I didn't do anything for it...... People just do mistake....... and people just keep repeating it......
Bye bye and good night......

Numb......

2006-06-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

Oh well...... I take about 10 minutes break after I type the title...... Today I get my microeconomy and I failed!!! I also get my History 1 and I failed!!! Yoohoo, last year I am still in top 3 and this year I will become the last 3! (Most probably......)
Today have a leg workout with my trainer...... I do about 45~50kg for my squat usually at home...... But what??? 40kg of machine squat almost killing me?! Then continue to leg curl...... and wow, I don't know that my harmstring strength improve so well in the last 3 weeks..... from 15kg curl to 35kg curl now! Wahahahaha! And here my quadriceps workout, leg extension...... suck as usual.... 20kg for 15 reps make me shivering....... :( Continue to machine standing calf raises( Showtime......) 50kg for 25 reps ( But only go till 17 reps in the last set cause I already fatigue......) I didn't feel sore after all these workout...... I feel nothing...... I don't feel my leg anymore!!!
Continue to my arm workout, I always thought that my triceps is quite strong but I am wrong, I hardly catch my breath for the 15kg pushdown! ( I never do this before, but it still ashamed considered my body size......) Then go on the dumbbell extension, dumbbell concentraction curl, alternate curl and...... I don't feel I got my arm anymore......
People that read here, perhaps you think I wanna become bodybuilder? Nar...... ( not so really, but perhaps if given chances?) I am just train because its my hobby and I finally find a good mentor.( Although quite far from my house, take an hour times to reach there if got traffic congestions......) However, guess I will stop going there for a while because my father don't have time to take me there......
My current stat: 180cm, 180lbs...... further stat... wait till it become a tremendous figure first...... :p
Its my feeding time ( I eat about 6~8 times a day......) Gotta go~ C ya~

Goin crazy again~~~

2006-06-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

Yeah yeah yeah I am gone crazy again...... Actually today I started my day with a pretty good move... Wake up at 5.45am, cook myself an oat and eat it, do some strecthing, bath and go to school. Teachers give back Economy paper and Malay paper today, although I failed my Economy paper, it doesn't affect my mood~~~
At the evening, I went to the gym and train with our local bodybuilder Mr Lawrence Cho, I got a very good workout and understand more about bodybuilding..... This really pump me up for the rest of 2 hours ( after that I am like dead fish...... :p)
What should not I do today was, I should never online...... I got a very bad habit, everytimes if I login to my friendster account and if I receive a new message, I tend to check the sender profile even I know who she/he is......
The story start here, I receive so called a message of encouragement from the girl I really really like...... Oh yeah because of my bad habit...... and oh yeah...... I see something that I should not see again ( refer to the incident " a pic can kill a boy") This time its much more...... Oh yeah...... Imagine how am I now...... Oh yeah.......

Fact that why I ain't not normal... or perhaps, not so normal......

2006-06-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

Well, let get started....... ( Note: There will be more, for the moment I will just type any that come across my mind.)

I didn't dine outside for 6 months.
I eat 7 times a day and drink about 2 litre of milk a day.
I actually enjoy expose myself under the hot sun and doesn't mind get sunburn.
I can stare at the same pages of my notebook for hours.
I can talk ou 1t loud at the crowd but will just get my tongue paralyzed when I face with certain people.
My cycling speed is much more faster than my driving speed.
I can sleep in anywhere even I don't feel I want to. ( Proven with my incident sleep in the school building all alone.)
I don't really fight back when I am been bullied or been tease by people that got smaller sizes than me but I got a experience chase 3 conman out of my homeyard with a stick and these 3 guy is much more bigger than me.
I enjoy eating oat 3 times a day, a plain cooked oat without anything.
I actually stocked some food on my study desk.
I don't comb my hair with all kind of style and rarely use( never use it once this year) hair gel or wax to style my hair.
I actually brought my mini pillow to school to sleep!
I really like when teacher caught me when I fall asleep and they punish me with some push up, they don't really know I wanna do it long times ago.
I still wear the same T-shirt that bought back when I am standard 4 till now and it still fit.
I enjoy to follow rules sometimes.
I love Star Wars and wishing my friends " May the force be with you."
I love Ultraman and sometimes will imitate how Dan Moroboshi transform into Ultra7 when I wear my spec.
I love Kamen Rider and will always say " Henshin" before I do anything that need a lot of physical strength.
I love Smallville and always feel wanna transferred to there.
I like to use song lyric or title to express my feeling.
While the trend now is lose weight and get lean, I struggle very hard to put on weight although I am already 170lbs for 180cm.
What I said and wrote normally not what I thinked.
Instead of galz and teddy bear, I hug my punching bag when I feel not so good.
I actually missed someone and love her for a long period of times but I just got no guts to her.
Some "chinese" actually think I am "not chinese" because they can't understand the chinese proverb that I use.
Although I think I am good in chinese, I never get A for my chinese exam because I always ended up wrote too much and...... Times out.
I can crap a whole day long without any water but I need about 6 litre of water when I am in front of my com for whole day.
I got a long history been bullied by small animals. Like been bite by dog, been scratch by cat, been chase by goose...... and even crow chase after me before....... I swear I didn't do anything to them but they just pick me up.
I ain't not normal because I think I am not so normal for this few things.
I ain't not normal because I don't watch world cup and till now I don't really know what its all about and don't mind which country win or lose. After all, its just a circus with about 20 guys chasing after a ball....... ( I will be killed by soccer fans for this.....)

Thats all for now, till then...... see ya.

Bored~~~~~~

2006-06-07T12:20:00.000+08:00

Just take some test from blogthings...... quite true ehh?

You Are 55% Normal

(Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal...

Other things you do are downright strange

You've got a little of your freak going on

But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

2006-05-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

Holidays start....... Two weeks...... emm, hope I can make use of it~~~ nothing to write recently??? Should be good news huh? Have a nice day~~~

2006-05-22T19:49:00.000+08:00

Well, exam still going on but I already knew I failed my History II~~~~~~ This mean I failed my history paper cause I always suck at my History I~~~~~~ Tomorrow makroeconomy, it seem history will repeat again, I will fail many subjects in exam...... again~~~~~~ Huah pretty tired, lastnight didn't get a good night sleep cause my neighbours house been break in by thief and my father not at home, this make me the only man at home and I just staying alert all the night~~~~ Did I sleep? I even can't remember did I close my eye and let the stick on my hand go or not~~~
Tired.........

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2006-05-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

...... I am still lost...... damm it...... phew... better cut that off, there's been a long time since I wrote some long article with pen. Well, yesterday I almost get my hand cramp cause not use to write so fast and so many, funny heh......
So far, the paper that had I sat is kinda easy, but I just don't have the answer for it :p
Woo...... next week is the final week for the exam, then holiday start......
What can I do for a week? Anyone out there mind to give your opinion?~~~
Bored bOred boRed borEd boreD~~~~~~

2006-05-16T15:35:00.000+08:00

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I am bored...... Wake up at 8, go out with my best friend Chean Lai and go to our primary school to visit our teachers then spend some hours and "discuss" some silly things with Ah Lai......
Just kick Chean Lai home because I've got homework to finish......
I can't live without my com...... I can't live without my handphone......
But I really hope these two spoil somehow...... I like to blog? Nar...... I hate blog, I blog because??? Lonely? Maybe...... Boring? Certainly...... and??? Dunno.......
Tomorrow mid year exam start...... I should reading history now but I still messing with my economy homework.......
Am I missing something in my life? Am I losing something? Am I crazy? Am I normal? Am I..........
Yeah what I am good in is have a nice talk and act cool in front of others...... in fact, I still can't accept what happen......
Hoh man....... I know what is right and what is wrong...... what must be done and what must be forget, yet I am still haven't make up my mind........
What wrong with me? I got no headache now...... I got no stomach-ache now and I am clear from any injury now too...... Yet I live like a patient that knew he got no hope to live......
What am I doing right now? Whining? Or just~~~~~~~
How long can I run? How far can I run?.................... Someone, if you could, please drag me back...... I got no problem to let myself down, but I don't want upset my parents.......
I don't want upset those that have faith in me... yet I am starting to do that....... I am starting to sideline from the way I should follow........ I already start losing my soul....... and motivation....... No rival...... boring....... no challenges ( there are, but I just can't feel it......)....... boring........ no love ( I mean boy girl relationship here)....... not only boring..... but just....................................................................................................... The End

:) :-) Hahaha.......

2006-05-15T14:46:00.000+08:00

Hahaha will be the sound I make most today....... To hide what had happen to me no long before? Some people even think something good had happeb to me so that I am so "happy" today, yet it is just a lie I make to myself? I am yet to discover myself........ I need to redeem myself...... I can't live like that...... Live like a pretender and perhaps... deceiver~~~
Face the fact, I just can't forget her that easily......
There still two days left for the mid year exam...... time is passing while I am wasting time...... everyone is progressing to their life while I still stay at the same place......
If there's destiny...... when will I face mine? And what will it be?
tik tok....... tik tok...... ~~~~~~~~~~
( I am now totally insane......)

2006-05-14T20:38:00.000+08:00

My heart will never been broken again...... Why? The answer is simple, my heart already dead......
What was your most painful moment or experience ( both mentally or physically) ? For me, physically will be when I've got my ankle dislocated and be given treatment by the Sifu. But the most painful experience won't be this...... What I didn't expect was, I've got the taste of it 20 minutes ago...... And what I didn't expect is, how much can a photo affect me!!!
Well, as expected right...... nothing to sad about!!!!!!
Perhaps I need times? What for I am here? What for I let myself sad? Will she know? Nar she won't, even if her know........ What for? Fact is, I am never got a place in her heart........ What am I doing here right now? Fool fool........
No matter what happen, I still need to move on and I know I can. But will it still be the same?
Hell I am still like a kid and keep whining when I don't get something I want? But it is still the same? Darn!!!!! I really drive myself mad!!!!!! How great it will be if I never met her?
"Hey gal..... u really break my heart, I luv u gal. Walk wif me, will ya?" <<< the word that I wanna tell her for so long but don't have the gut to do it and can't find a good timing...... now great, she been taking and I keep whining here....... failer....

_ wee wang wang....... wee wang wang wang~~~~~~~

2006-05-14T12:53:00.000+08:00

Emm, wonder what all of u need when doing revision? Well, mostly the answer will be couple of reference books, some notes right? Well for me, I will add on a bottle of "Kwan Loong Medicated Oil" and Tiger Balm. Its hard to let me stay focus, normaly after 10 minutes staring at the book, I will feel like I am riding a roller coaster...... After about 30 minutes....... boom! I am on my bed! So in order to last longer... I will apply it on my forehead, and sometimes, near my eyes ( I know its bad but it is the only way I can make myself awake and keep staring on the book~~~~) Beside that, it is also my best friend when I've got stomach-ache or injured myself during exercise ( emm, I use it pretty frequently these day?) Well well~~~~ I better stop the crap and go to do my revision.......

2006-05-11T10:30:00.000+08:00

Its finally over...... the MUET exam...... After that, there will be mid year exam next week......
Wah eh mak ar~~~~~~~

2006-05-10T21:41:00.000+08:00

...... 9 more hours will be my MUET speaking test, my most fear part ( used to be my favourite part, but after get burn in the last exam....... oh well~~~~~~) Oh god...... Its only small exam, calm down boy........ calm down......
I wonder what will happen to me when I gonna face STPM 6 months later......
I become more useless and coward when I grew older? Or perhaps just because "kiasu"?
Miss the time when I can get A's easily in UPSR and PMR...... and play basketball 10 minutes before my SPM start......

A new start?

2006-05-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

Miracle happen! I do my revision!!! But as usual, miracle won't last for long~~~ I am still okay for the 1st 10 minutes....... then I start feel my head become heavier and heavier...... Finally I decided to switch on my com after 57 minutes!!! ( Yes! I time myself!) Not even an hour I sat quietly to do revision~~~ But at least this is the first time in this month I do my revision~~~ hope I can keep on doing it~~~
By the way, am I allergy to textbook? Everytime ?I open it my head will feel very heavy and sometimes even get headache!!! ( This did not apply to novel, magazines and blah blah blah~~~ only for school textbook~~~) 10 more days to mid year exam...... :p this year result surely decline like how the fuel price increase~~~~
No Smallville for tonight...... ~!@#$%^&*()_+

May 7th

2006-05-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

So here the end of May 6th. As I thought, not even a sms from her. I am just nothing in her heart. Perhaps this is better for me since I no longer have any hope toward her? Two weeks...... two weeks I tried to drag myself away from thinking about her, I am quite successfully to do that thanks to lot of programmes I set for myself, but did I really manage to do that?
Dream...... in chinese there's a word "日有所思, 夜有所梦" mean that what you think in daytime, you will dream about it at night, and I just keep bump into her in my dream......
Indeed that was a nice dream, however...... thats not reality, dream is dream, everytime I woke up from that dream, it is just more ~!@#$%^&*()!
A week had pass for May, 3 more days to MUET speaking test, and 10 more days to mid year exam......

May 6th~~~

2006-05-06T01:45:00.000+08:00

My birthday...... get wishes from few of my friends after the clock turn 00.00am. And just as I thought, that particular person that I care for, don't remember it. But not as I thought, I don't feel any dissapoinment, perhaps I just use to it?
Last year, she was the person to wish me, same goes with the year before...... However...... emm...... still got 22 hours left for May 6th, perhaps something will happen?
Arrr actually nothing big deal with someone birthday except if you turn 17, you can go to take your driving test and license, if you turn 21, you got the right to vote~
Just turn 19, doesn't mean so much~~~ Except you take STPM for this year into account~~~
This year birthday sure a boring one~~~ Huahhhh... better go to ZzzZzz now~~~

=_=

2006-05-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

Okay...... now May and I still!!! still didn't do any preparation for my STPM and mid year exam. Kinda lonely these day....... Go to tuition alone...... eat at class alone...... stare at this blardy computer screen alone for numerous hour...... and sleep alone at night :p Urgghh...... What happen to me...
MUET speaking test will be on next week, then follow by mid year exam...... WTF on my mind now!? Can't really concentrate on my study these day and I think I'm suffering from amnesia??? (only for study......) All the topic been taught in lower six, I just simply forget it all......
WTH I am still wondering here? I've got a lot of work to do...... Till next time, see ya.
( P.S.: please take this fellow ( that's me!) as a lesson, don't follow this fellow foot step, always focus on your work and study, or else you will just ended up like a maniac like him...... hehehehehe)

2006-04-30T06:41:00.000+08:00

Phew...... finally 3 of my MUET paper is over, after finish the speaking test it will be over...... The paper this time quite tough, not forget to mention the listening test. Usually I take this part as bonus mark, however this time the 2nd part not pretty tough, but tough and confusing! ( well, I don't know how was it for others, at least for me it is...)
So, now I'm creating trouble for myself, at first I hope I can get a better result this time but it seem it even very hard to maintain the same resutl I get last year. Speaking test will be held on 11 May, hopefully I won't screw up myself this time~~~
April going to end... in about 24 hours and 45 minutes ( time may change, depend on when you read this) and for about 8700 minutes more, there will be my 19th birthday...... huh? Should I started my study? Well...... hope so... hopefully...... Let wish that there will be a May that full with happiness~~~

P.S.: I had wrote this at 23.15 29 April 2006, however I only manage to get it online at 6.43 30 April 2006 due to the connection failure.
Wondering why I wake up so early at Sunday? Because...... Just have a dream, a dream that never will be true, that particular person in my dream, is the one I try to forget...... But, it seem it just a lie if I say I can forget her easily......

28 April 2006

2006-04-28T16:19:00.000+08:00

No class today since today is my school sport's day. Clock show 16.25pm now. Nothing much I did today, only eat and sleep, and perhaps cheering for my team.( I lose in the 1st round of the event I participate, so I just become a audience today.) Just wake up about 10 minutes ago, wondering what I am doing here now......
Tomorrow is MUET exam, but I decided to just sit still and die??? Suddenly don't have confident to face the exam this time...... there some sort of nervous inside me I think
Don't know what should I write more...... Perhaps, I will edit it afterward when I fully gain my consciousness~~~

Blog Addiction?

2006-04-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

Well..... since my teacher told me to relax myself... I will just have my good time browsing on the net and posting blog..... Emm... I've think I start blogging about at the end of 2005 but I did not update it frequently... sometimes even I didn't login to it for about month or more.... Mostly when I am in very bad mood.... then I will post something to express it.....
But now!!!! I've think I am addict to it because now at least I post one blog a week!!!!!!! Well, lastime I didn't blog so much because it seem don't have any people interested to look at it, but after have a talk with a friend named Glads and see her blog...... suddenly I'm "inspired" to blogging again.... well, thats why all of these day you people out there can see so many post these day.....
( For those that like to read my blog, please leave your comment to motivate me furthermore~~~ I will try my best to share my experience??? ( or just complaining?) with all of you... and for the one that make me into it.... you better watch out ar if you don't update your blog.... same goes with you also, Kuan Thing if you are reading this.... how long you didn't update your blog?)

High anxiety student...... me?

2006-04-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

Just have a talk with my MUET teacher today, she comment that I should sit down and relax or just go to do some prayer to calm myself down. While setting a goal is good, but she told me just be contented to what I get and don't get so frustated if I don't get what I want. Yup...... I know why she said that...... MUET exam on this week, I will retake it again ( many people considered me crazy because I already get band 4...... but that just not enough)....... When I said this back to her..... wow somemore lecture come.... like I am lack of confident because I still need the result to prove myself........ anyways... I think she right somehow, perhaps I need to loosen up a bit.
Emm, better don't think too much..... since it is teacher advice, perhaps I should go to enjoy myself now? :p Till then, see ya~

Not again......

2006-04-24T18:52:00.000+08:00

yeap...... I lose again in tug of war... Why? My team had been outnumbered!!! 10 vs 6, yet should be say 10 vs 2? Since other didn't put their max effort, what I remember about this event is, I and one of my teamate been pull till other side...... Never lose in this event before, taste of failure sure bad plus my stomache still didn't recover. There so many air??? inside my stomache and it feel like wanna explode, and I also have serious sleeping problem since lastweek... Anyone have any tips to help me ehh? Thx...

As the time go on......

2006-04-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

tik tok tik tok tik tok...... the night still young, just finish watching Smallville...... still wondering on the net, don't know what should do next... the longest Sunday for me today, just feel hard to let the time past. Perhaps, because there something I just cannot let go? Perhaps, just because the high temperature today make me going crazy again? At least I am right in one thing...... the more frequent I post my blog... it seem, more insane I became... tik tok tik tok... the clock just hit 23.15...... still wondering, should I sleep? Phone her again? Or~~~~~~ Let wish there will be a better day tomorrow.

23 April 2006

2006-04-23T19:59:00.000+08:00

What is today? World book day... birthday of someone...... and definitely a bad day for me~~~ not only today the weather is hot, I also have a hardtime to figure out what should I do in the wholeday, since it is World Book Day, I tried to do some revision...... this time I manage to last longer than an hour, but it seem nothing get inside my mind~~~ I'm just read and read and read~~~ The weather damm hot, I bath 4 times today, drink few bottle of water but it still hot. Oh yeah, I'm having stomache now...... and my head also start feel dizzy......
Arrrr...... I'm pretty weak at the moment...... both physical and mental, the night is still long, anyone come to rescue?
( I am diehard Smallville fan, perhaps the theme song of it most suit my condition now?
Somebody save me..............) ~!@#$%^&*()

21 April 2006

2006-04-22T00:47:00.000+08:00

Today, after shot putting event at stadium, I'm just straight away go home since I've lost in the competition I participate~~~ While I'm in the bus, the bus is fully packed, and a old "ah ma" don't have place to sit so she just stand near the door ( As usual, no body give their sit to the elder...... what kind of people in this country ar......). What happen next really make me mad, after a while the bus stop in another bus stop and the bus driver just don't bother about that "ah ma" tat standing near the door and open the door, and, that "ah ma" finger been clamp between the door. Even so that driver still don't bother and only push the door open after next stop. Poor "ah ma"! I' m not standing close that time so I don't hear really clear what that driver saying, but from his face expression, I've think he is scolding that "ah ma" than comforting her after that incident. Oh, and people in the bus just pretend that nothing happen and this really make me sick. Just before I act, there's a little cute Indian girl gave "ah ma" a plaster. Funny right, even kids know how to care about other, what the adults know? SIT AND RELAX! Damm, there also couple of high school student inside ( shame, my ex school student...) and they just pretend nothing happen!!! Sick...... even I shame about myself because didn't act quickly when this incident happen and now what I can do is write this blog and after that complain to that company! By the way, the bus plate number is 8418, 400 Tmn Sri Sentosa. People out there, somedays...... we will getting old...... imagine, if someone treat you like this, how do you feel? Without the old generation, we are nothing today. Hope people that have a chance to read this blog, think back, how many mean thing you do to the elder in the past? Is it very hard to give your sit to the elder? Is it very hard to give a helping hand to those that need it? I always believe in what you get is what you did, think of it. Have a nice day.

(Note: at first I don't want to write this out because just too lazy but after my friend encouragement, I decided to write it down to give more awarenes to more people, sometimes, accident happen because people just don't about thing that happen around them and that particular "small" problem sometimes may lead to disaster. )

Untitled

2006-02-12T14:23:00.000+08:00

..... Okay, it already middle of the February and I am still make fool around...... New year ended and Valentines around, another lonely Valentines again? Wish me luck >_<
( It seem the more often I post my blog, the more lunatic I became...... by the way, today Chap Goh Mei, full moon......)

CNY......

2006-01-30T19:40:00.000+08:00

Huaaaahhh...... this year CNY sure boring...... and very exhausting too...... Somebody help...... ( With the hot climate around, it make life more miserable......)
Anyone that willing to help please come to visit me together with ANGPOW! arigato......

Back To School......

2006-01-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

After a long two months holiday, school reopen and I need to continue those "......" life. Perhaps I relax too much during the holiday, I keep yawning at school today and just can't keep myself concentrated.
Oh well, the only thing I can remember for the whole day is that, I'm broke thanks to all the fees that need to paid up. :p
Perhaps tomorrow teacher will start teaching? Ahhhhh very tired right now, c ya!

2006

2006-01-01T02:30:00.000+08:00

I wonder what it is mean a new year to you guys? Often been said, 1st January is beginning of the year. But did it really so, at least for me, I don't think so. If you really ask me what so special about this day, my answer will be my dad's birthday and perhaps I will also said that, today is the day they will broadcast many great show at TV. Ohya, and many firework around the world.
Some people love to go to countdown, perhaps with friends, family, or perhaps with the love one. For me, I'd rather choose to stay at home, after all, that's nothing big deal than changing a calendar.
I think many people out there have many plans for 2006 huh? Yeah, you guess it, I still don't have any plan for it. Looking back to 2005, many thing happened and changed, but I still didn't improve and grown up at all?( At least I think so, if don't I won't feel so frustated and keep crapping here.)
For the people out there that read this, don't be like me. Believe me, life is beautiful and full with great thing if you open up your heart. For me, perhaps I am the exceptionist. -_-

End of the 2005.... Part II

2005-12-29T14:54:00.000+08:00

At the beginning of form 6, I can be considered as "hardworking". But after a few weeks, I feel that form 6 is easier as I thought. So, my laziness come back...... The only thing I don't like about form 6 is I have to take BM, but what can I do? This is my decision to go to form 6.
So then, I just continue my day aimlessly, hopelessly...... Oh ya, almost forget, I lost 30 lbs during holidays, I've think this is my biggest success during 2005? hehehe...... Nothing much happen during July, August, September...... Haze attack on September??? So we've got some special holiday and I add up some extra "holidays" for myself......
Final exams on October, as usual, I didn't prepared for it and just passed on every subjects, pretty good luck :p The day before school holiday start, I have my MUET exam. Damm this exam is really unfair for Art Stream student like me! Many of the passage topic based on science and technology, well I know myself, guess I will retake the exam :(
For brief information about what I did at holiday, kindly refer to my previous blog.
So 2005 year will be end, then there's come 2006. Don't live with regret is my motto, so if you have anything that feel want to do right on this year, GO AND DO IT! Wish everyone out there stay healthy and stay happy!

End of the 2005

2005-12-29T14:19:00.000+08:00

Looking back, it seem that many things that I want to do this year but most of it(99.9%) turned out to be just "plan" and nothing has come out. Just take this blog as example, I think I just update it once a months?
In 1st January of 2005, I spent my new year crawling and rolling on the sand, for your information, I am not in any countdown celebration but I'm being punished! I joined the national service in 13 December 2004 so I had to spend my time at the camp during new year. This one kinda memory for me since not everyone will spend his new year with 250 more boys and been scold and punished :p
5th March, my national service ended. First thing I did after I come out from the camp, sms my friends and tell them " I'm back."( I didn't bring my handphone along with me to the camp.) I plan to find a job after I get my SPM result ( don't mention my result again, I will got nightmare......), however I caught sicked for about 2 weeks! When I'm fully recover, its already April.
I looking for the job from papers, friends and attend a few interview but none of them want to hire me. I am unemployed!!! So from plan A I shift to plan B( since when I have plan A and B?) I use this oppurnities to work my body out!
So in this long holidays, I do nothing but just spent my day jogging around and have some weight lifting exercise, of course, together with my favourite computer games and Star Wars novels. The only movie I go out to watch during this period is so called " The Jacket" since I go out to met a friend that will continue her study in Malacca.
May 6th, my 18th birthday. This year I celebrated my birthday with my familys and my aunt since her birthday is as the same date with me. May 17th, I enrolled myself to form 6. Since my old school don't have form 6 class, I shift to other school, ACS Klang. As the 1st day I'm in the school, it also remark the beginning of the new life.( First time I'm not in chinese school.)

1st Of December, Day One Of My Part Time Job

2005-12-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

Oh well, the 1st day was a memorable one!? After I have my breakfast, my father bring me to KLCC( he got some business to settle there). Well, till now I can't forget how dumb am I, I already in the Convention Centre but I am still looking all around for it. However Jun Xiang told me to wait him at Burger King, so I move on to Burger King.
After waiting for him for about 20 minutes, I try to phone him and he tell me that he will be coming late, but he tell me that my other friends, Chen Loon and Chee Kei also waiting at Burger King. I try to phone Chen Loon and he tell me he already at the front door of the Burger King( actually there's two Burger King, I manage to find them after I make clear about it). So after three of us gather, we move on to KLCC convention centre.
At there, we also gather with other fellow partimer and been given a ID card each. The job at the 1st day is the easy one, we just setup our booth and move all the stock to our booth. The fellow in charge of us named Dave, he kind a nice leader.
Our work finish at about 8pm, before I went back to Klang, Chen Loon and Chee Kei suggest me to go and stay with them in Wangsa Maju since everyday if I go back to Klang and go work at KL is very time and cost consuming.
Clock already reach 12 after I came home, nothing much I did except bath, then ZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Feeling lazy right now......

2005-12-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

Oh well, two weeks had passed since the lastime I update my blog. Still the same, nothing much had I did in this two weeks except I have my partime job.
I work as sales assistant in pc fair during 1st till 4th of December at KL convention centre.
This job actually for me is a easy one since it only last for 4 days however this is also the first job I work under other people beside of my father. The company I work for named Leapfrog Distribution, the supplier for PSU and PC Casing, and also some branded speakers like BlueThunder. Since this is a experience, I will write it separately as day one, day two, and so on...... (Hope I will do it since I need to overcome my laziness before I do it.)

Another Week Passed Away...... Again......

2005-11-20T23:42:00.001+08:00

Yeah all of you guess it...... I waste another week......

I hate rain!

2005-11-16T19:27:00.000+08:00

Today I should go tuition, however I didn't since its a rainy day. There's no bus-stop near my house and my tuition center. So, everytime I go tuition, I had to walk about 1km to bus stop and then after I come down from bus, another few more km to my tuition center. I think of whether I should go tuition today or just stay at home, after all, my laziness overcome my sense of learning. So I just spend another inproductive day and destroying my own future.
Talk about rain, I really hate it!!! Some years ago, I am playing computer game at a rainy day, suddenly there's a lightning and POP! My PC been shocked and everything gone wrong(That's my 1st pc and I think it happen around when I am form 1, the beginning of my semester holiday......). Not only this, since I don't have car, I really rely on public transportation or bicycle. I already forget how many times I get my whole body wet or sicked because of the stupid rain!
Till when I can overcome the problem bring by rain? I hate rain......

( There's nothing special, I just feel bored because didn't go to tuition today so I just post this~ Just wrote it for fun~ Have a nice day everyone out there, don't ever get your plan ruined by rain~ ^_^)

End of My 2nd week...... Beginning of my 3rd week......

2005-11-14T13:37:00.000+08:00

Time indeed past pretty fast, without noticing, I already used 1/4 of my holidays. As usual, nothing much I did in last week but I had finally settle one of the important thing in my life, renew my i.c...... This year I had went to JPN for 4 time!!! Don't know why I am so "lucky", everytime I went there, there already whole bunch of people waiting there and I even didn't manage to get a waiting number!
Wednesday I have my economy tuition, just two weeks I didn't open my book, everything I learn before go blank... :( Lesson for people that read this blog, always do your revision. Oh yeah I and Wei Chun keep talking in tuition class that day and get scolded, but what I didn't think of is our tuition teacher praise Wei Hou(Wei Chun's twin) for being so quiet in class and finish his work at time. Oh thank god!? Is it our teacher blind? Wei Hou used to bug me in class so that's why I switch my place to sit beside Wei Chun! After 2 hours of tuition, I feel very exhausted and of course, when I reached home, I quickly fall into my bed.
Nothing special happen in Thursday and Friday, I spend all my day long browsing the web. My dad went home at Saturday( he used to work outstation recently). Oh yeah my cute little cousin come to stay with us for few days this holiday, I and my sister need to baby sitting......
Sunday...... Something terrible happen, my sister got her ankle dislocated while having a basketball competition!!! ( Well, this happen to me in the mid of the year also, just fully recover after 2 months......) She got important competition this year, well it is kinda dissapoinment for her. Damm the nasional player for playing so rude!? (Well, my sister team versus nasional player at that time......) My sister is 10 times more active than me, it is very suffering for her to lay on bed. Hope she will recover soon.
P.S. This blog been wrote by me in Monday after I take my lunch ,bath and suddenly my mood came, so I wrote it.

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